April 01, 2016 - "One Year (Alone)"
It's about 7:30 in the morning on the first anniversary of the death of my brother... and I'm all alone in the church, lying prostrate before the altar... before the Tabernacle... before the Blessed Sacrament... before God.
Lying face down with my forehead resting on my hands, which clutch the Rosary my brother gave to me when he stood as my Confirmation Sponsor at this very spot...
Lying face down... offering myself... all that I am... all that I have... all that I ever will be - to the Lord...
Lying face down... crying as I pray: "Grant that I may love You always, and then do with me as You will. For you lived and died for love of me... May I live and die for love of You."...
Lying face down... alone with the Lord... offering up my tears and my emotions and all of the pains of the last year as sacrifice...
Lying face down... praying for the intentions of my brother Peter... and for his wife and children - my sister-in-law and my nieces.
Lying face down... until it's time to rise... go to Confession... then attend Morning Mass and Prayers in the Adoration Chapel.
But for now - it's just me lying here, face down... placing myself in front of the Lord... asking to be shown the way... asking for the strength I need - that I might continue to carry the cross I have been given... and help alleviate the weight of the crosses my family has had to bear.
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Stay with me, Lord, for it is necessary to have You present so that I do not forget You. You know how easily I abandon You.
Stay with me Lord, because I am weak, and I need Your strength, so that I may not fall so often.
Stay with me Lord, for You are my life, and without You, I am without fervor.
Stay with me Lord, for You are my light, and without You, I am in darkness.
Stay with me Lord, to show me Your will.
Stay with me Lord, so that I hear Your voice and follow You.
Stay with me Lord, for I desire to love you very much, and always be in Your company.
Stay with me Lord, for as poor as my soul is, I want it to be a place of consolation for You...
... a nest of Love.
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