Sunday, February 28, 2016

366 Project - Day 59 - "Fig Trees and Forgiveness"

February 28, 2016 - "Fig Trees and Forgiveness"

After mass today I went to the Perpetual Adoration Chapel to serve my weekly "Holy Hour" in front of the Holy Eucharist.

When I first entered the chapel there were only two other people in the room: the Adorer who I was there to relieve... and one visitor. I signed in... knelt in front of the Eucharist... and began my hour of prayer. After 10 minutes or so the other two people had left and I was alone with the Eucharist for the remainder of my Holy Hour.

I prayed and prayed and prayed some more. I felt a calmness and a presence that is simply indescribable. It was beautiful... and THAT was the highlight of my day.

Several hours later I was at home, completely in tears after the most extreme and intense argument my son and I have ever had during his almost 15 years of life. It resulted in him stomping off to his room in tears... and me sitting at my desk with my head hung low, tears rolling down my cheeks.

I thought about today's Gospel reading - Luke 13:1-9 - the Parable of the Fig Tree. I realized that, like the gardener, I had been given a fig tree to care for which I should have been cultivating and fertilizing the whole time - rather than waiting until the end and asking for one more year so I could give it special attention in hopes that it would start producing fruit again.

I then thought about this being the "Jubilee Year of Mercy"... and the words of Luke 6:37-38 came to mind:

"Stop judging and you will not be judged. Stop condemning and you will not be condemned. Forgive and you will be forgiven. Give and gifts will be given to you; a good measure, packed together, shaken down, and overflowing, will be poured into your lap. For the measure with which you measure will in return be measured out to you."

And with that in mind I realized that a year of long-overdue cultivation awaits me. It is time to both forgive the fig tree and ask for the fig tree's forgiveness... then set about the proper work of one who takes up the role of being a gardener.

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