Monday, February 15, 2016

366 Project - Day 46 - "Abstract (Voices in the Cold)"

February 15, 2016 - "Abstract (Voices in the Cold)"

A couple of days ago, as I helped my Sister-in-law organize some things, I saw a few clips from home movies from the past 20+ years.

I can't really describe the feeling of seeing video footage of people whom you knew and loved and lost over two decades ago. The voices of my aunt and my grandfather - both instantly familiar, yet somewhat "different"... as if the memory of their voices had begun to fade.

... and then there were the videos of my brother.

Actually - to be more accurate - they were mostly videos "by" my brother... as he was the cameraman more often than not. His voice was there though... a voice which - though it has been a constant in my mind for the last ten months - I have not actually heard with my ears for more than a year now.

What will it be like two decades from now if I see such a video again? The thought scares me. The thought that I might one day not recognize his voice.

His voice... which has filled every quiet moment I've had for months on end... intensified by those video recordings... filling my every thought these last couple of days...

His voice... filling my mind even now as I stand in the quiet emptiness of this snowy day.

There is a comfort in such moments. A comfort I never want to let go of. A comfort I never want to forget.

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