Monday, February 1, 2016

366 Project - Day 32 - "Dark Day Prayers"

February 01, 2016 - "Dark Day Prayers"

Today I'm finally feeling better "physically"...

... "emotionally", not so much.

Have you ever had one of those days where everything that could go wrong does go wrong? It builds and it builds and it builds, like a snowball rolling down a hill, picking up more snow... becoming bigger and bigger and bigger. The day goes on... yet you keep falling down the hill... and things just seem to get worse and worse and worse.

Until you hit rock bottom.

How far down is "rock bottom"? I don't know, exactly. I only know that when you've hit it, you know for sure that you've hit it.

I'm far from hitting rock bottom in most areas of my life, and yet I know that the bottom is very much in sight in some areas. Important areas.

I haven't hit it just yet... but I have reached my wits' end. Until today I didn't know exactly where that end was... but now I seem to have reached it.

I know that everything will be OK in the long-run. I know that tomorrow is a new day. I know that the frustration of "now" doesn't have to carry over unless I choose to let it.

It's just so freakin' hard NOT to let it at moments like these, when you're dangling so close to the bottom.

Lord... I believe. Help my unbelief!

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