Thursday, January 14, 2016

366 Project - Day 14 - "The Unfixable"

January 14, 2016 - "The Unfixable"

Over the course of the last nine months or so I've discovered that I'm able to fix many things. I can take something like this pocket watch - which has not ticked a single second for many years - and I can bring it back to life. I can overhaul a fine Swiss wristwatch... and I can re-wire a kitchen. I can fix a computer operating system error that several professional technicians were not able to figure out even after many hours of trying. I can even help fix some relationships... and bring together two siblings who haven't spoken a word to one another in decades.

Fixing such things seems easy to me now.

There are many things, however, that I cannot fix... and unfortunately they are the things that need fixing the most. There are no manuals for such things. There are no instructional videos on YouTube. There isn't an app for that.

How is it that I can steady my hands enough to replace a two-millimeter-long chronograph watch hand on a post that is about as thick as a human hair... yet I cannot figure out how to fix things with my own son? What am I missing? What am I doing wrong? Why can't I figure this one out? Why is it that every single thing I try ends up backfiring in the end? Is it "really" the Autism... or is it just me? What am I doing wrong? What is it that I am supposed to be doing?

The pocket watch is ticking away... keeping perfect time as it sits on the desk beside me. It is a constant reminder that time is ticking away... and in the great big scheme of things there are only so many seconds left to figure out how to fix that which seems to be...

... unfixable.

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