Sunday, November 29, 2015

365 Project - Day 333 - "First Sunday of Advent"


November 29, 2015 - "First Sunday of Advent"

Today is the First Sunday of Advent... and the 12-noon Mass at our church was held for my brother Peter.

As I lit a blue candle to ask the Blessed Virgin Mary to pray for my brother's family... tears began to fall.

As I lit a red candle to ask St. Joseph to pray for for my brother's family... tears began to fall.

As I repeated the words "To you, O Lord, I lift my soul"... tears began to fall.

As my children and I presented the Holy Gifts to Father Shawn... tears began to fall.

As I bowed towards the Tabernacle, at the spot where Peter stood as my Sponsor during my Confirmation... tears began to fall.

As I approached Father Shawn to receive Holy Communion, tears began to fall.

As I knelt, staring at the very spot where Peter stood as the Best Man and Witness for my Catholic Marriage... tears began to fall.

As I prayed, and prayed and prayed some more... tears began to fall.

As I sat staring at Peter's watch on my wrist as guests talked at our gathering table... tears began to fall.

As I cut the special-order Red and Blue Italian Rum Cake... tears began to fall.

As I lit the first Purple Candle on our Advent Wreath... tears began to fall.

As I offered the prayer to mark the week of "Hope"... tears began to fall.

As I gazed upon the glowing light... tears began to fall.

Not the kind of tears that roll down your cheeks and leave a salty taste on your lips. Yes... there were plenty of those as I broke down during Mass, desperately trying to hide it from my family. No... the tears I'm talking about here are the tears within. The tears I'm talking about are falling from my heart. The tears I'm talking about have been flowing for eight months now. The tears I'm talking about will never stop flowing.

Once again I stand before the Advent Wreath, absorbing the glow of the Candle of Hope... offering the prayer "To you, O Lord, I lift my soul"... as tears begin to fall.

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