Friday, November 6, 2015
365 Project - Day 310 - "Just In Case"
November 06, 2015 - "Just In Case"
Today I had to go in for a "procedure". That's what you call it when you reach a certain age and don't want to say "surgery".
Very, VERY few people knew that it was happening... and even fewer knew what it was that was happening. The details of what it was are personal... so please don't ask about any of that - just know that I'm obviously still here and everything is OK.
Still... when a doctor tells you that you have to have a "procedure" - it doesn't matter how routine it happens to be, certain thoughts run through your head. I've known that it was happening for about four months now... so I've had plenty of time for such thoughts to be running through my head - and run through my head they did. Well... at least at first they did. To be honest I haven't been thinking about it very much at all until earlier this week when the surgeon's office called for information.
When you're asked questions like "Are you an organ donor?", "Do you have a Living Will?" and "Is there a particular clergyman or church you would like us to contact if it becomes necessary?" - well, lets just say that it 'gets your attention'. Life suddenly becomes more "real". And when you're standing there signing a Living Will in front of witnesses - then watching THEM sign it - life becomes even MORE real.
The reality is that the procedure was so minor and routine that the chances of anything going wrong were virtually nil... and yet after you've checked in at the desk and are sitting there waiting for the nurse to come get you, you can't help but have an "Oh Shit!" moment.
My "Oh Shit!" moment came and went rather quickly. I reached into my bag and pulled out one of the cameras I always have with me... got Holly laughing as I snapped a pic. Focus. Snap. Capture. A photo of the most important thing in the world to me... "just in case" it would become the last photo I'd ever take.
But it wasn't the last photo I'd ever take. Several hours later I was snapping a photo of a plate of very-much-needed bacon on the table before me... and with that, life went on.
The truth is - every night when I go to bed is sort of an "Oh Shit!" moment. I know that it sounds very morbid and all - but this year has shown me that you NEVER know when the last time is that you'll kiss your best friend goodnight... or hug your children... or eat a plate full of bacon.
No - I do not go to bed at night thinking these thoughts... that would be a very unhealthy way to live. I do, however, wake up each morning with a quick "Thank You" for being blessed with another day... because I truly am thankful for each and every day I am given... just as I am thankful for each and every person who is part of my life.
Someday the moment will come when I will have looked through the viewfinder for the final time. That is reality. That is life. But since I have no way of knowing when that final image will be captured, I'm going to take every chance I have to look through the viewfinder of life... to Focus. Snap. Capture.
Life. IS. Good!
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