Wednesday, June 3, 2015

365 Project - Day 154 - "Chained"

June 03, 2015 - "Chained"

Have you ever felt as if you have a ton of chains wrapped around your entire body... weighing you down... holding you back?

That's how anxiety feels to me.

Some days are better than others. Some days I'm able to do things that other days I just can't bring myself to do no matter how hard I try. Simple things - like talking to someone on the phone... or having to ask a store employee a question - can become a nightmare scenario for me. Yet at other times I'm able to strike up conversations with strangers like it's nothing... or even get up in front of a crowd of people I do not know and give a speech without any nervousness whatsoever. It is very frustrating!

This isn't something new... it has been going on for many years... and I am being treated for it.

Lately the "good" days have been very good... and the "bad" days have been very bad. Thankfully there have been more of those "good" days these past two months than there have been "bad" ones. Still, even on the good days the fear of things going wrong weighs heavy upon me.

It really sucks, feeling "chained".

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