Tuesday, May 19, 2015
365 Project - Day 139 - "Coffee and Xanax"
May 19, 2015 - "Coffee and Xanax"
People keep asking me how it is that I'm managing to get through all of this... How it is that I'm managing to keep going...
Well... here's part of the secret: Lots of coffee... and a bit of Xanax.
The coffee actually does nothing for me anymore. Caffeine doesn't seem to have that much of an effect on me. It's just a comfort thing. One... two... three... even four travel-mug-fills of coffee a day and I feel soothed.
The Xanax, on the other hand, keeps me from completely losing my shit. I have very bad anxiety issues - and have been taking Xanax (not every day - only as needed) for quite a while now.
But it isn't Xanax alone... I've also been on anti-depressants for years - and although there have been many ups and downs, my doctor and I seem to have finally found a "cocktail" that has been working wonders.
I know that meds are not for everyone. For some people they work... for others they do nothing but cause more anxiety and depression. Some people shouldn't be on meds... many people I know probably should.
Not all disabilities are physical. Not all disabilities are visible. Emotional disabilities are just as "real" and "valid" as something like Parkinson's Disease, which I also happen to have.
My point is... if you think you need help, get it. Meds may or may not be the answer... Therapy and counseling may or may not be the answer... but "not seeking help" is NEVER the answer. One thing I've learned, especially in the last month and-a-half, is that life is far too precious to let it slip by... and if you're suffering and not seeking help, you ARE "letting it slip by".
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