Sunday, July 29, 2012

366 Project - Day 211 - "Solitary"


July 29, 2012 - "Solitary"

After a wonderful week of feeling much, much better... and an absolutely fantastic day... I find myself right back at square one... and it's worse now.

So tonight I'm spending the night under observation in the crisis ward of the hospital. Well... sort-of. This place is packed... so I'm on a bed at the end of the hall... opposite of the secure doors I'm not even allowed to look at longingly. Security behind the counter... and a police officer on a 15-hour shift pacing back-and-forth, trying to stay awake.

My socks aren't my own. My shoes... belt... wallet... even my handkerchief have been taken away. I manage to snap a photo with my wife's cell phone during the brief time they allowed her to sit with me. And after that I just sit here waiting... and waiting... and waiting for help to arrive.

1am...
2am...
3am...
4am...
5am...
6am...
7am...
8am...
9am...

... and every half-hour recognized as well.

Waiting... and waiting... and waiting... until it's finally my turn for them to talk to me.

Adjustments to my meds... again - and I'm finally released into the day-light.

I'm feeling much better now... but then again, I felt much better yesterday too. So now there's just this fear that things really aren't "much better".

And I'm tired.

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