Thursday, March 31, 2011

365 Project - Day 90 - "Staying Alive"

March 31, 2011 - "Staying Alive"

Just one day's-worth of medications and supplements...

Twenty-four pills a day...

One-hundred-sixty-eight pills a week...

Eight-thousand-seven-hundred-thirty-six pills a year...

... all helping me to stay alive.

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If I reach $750 in total donations from all of you fine folks, I will match it with $750 of my own money - for a total of $1,500.00!!!

So, what do you say... Do you feel like spending my money for me?

Click HERE to sponsor my participation in the 2011 AIDS Walk NY

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Wednesday, March 30, 2011

365 Project - Day 89 - "Self Portrait (Below)"

March 30, 2011 - "Self Portrait (Below)"

Examining myself...

... again.

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Tuesday, March 29, 2011

365 Project - Day 88 - "Underwater"

March 29, 2011 - "Underwater"

Ever feel as if you're floating around underwater?

Drifting in a sea of bubbles and blobs and colors...

not quite sure which way is "up"... but not really caring anyway...

... just floating... and feeling free...

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Monday, March 28, 2011

365 Project - Day 87 - "COFFEE!!!"

March 28, 2011 - "COFFEE!!!"

Sacks of green coffee beans await roasting at Molten Java in Bethel, CT.

A beautiful sight, indeed!


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Sunday, March 27, 2011

365 Project - Day 86 - "A Box of Colors"

March 27, 2011 - "A Box of Colors"

Wandering around Main Street in Northampton, MA on a bright Sunday afternoon.

Popping in and out of shops... looking for "something"... but not sure what.

Then... while waiting for Holly to finish browsing so we could exit one store and move on to the next, I notice a shimmering rainbow on a shelf. The culprit? A brightly colored box made of curved bits of plastic... reflecting the bright sunlight pouring directly on it from the huge storefront window.

A box of colors... reflecting in a split-second of light.


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Saturday, March 26, 2011

365 Project - Day 85 - "Death in Room 1432"

March 26, 2011 - "Death in Room 1432"

It looks like I've accidentally killed my wife in a hotel bathroom... again.

Well, photographically-speaking, that is.

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Friday, March 25, 2011

365 Project - Day 84 - "Laced Up"

March 25, 2011 - "Laced Up"

Long day...

Long night...

Simple shot...

The laces of my custom-made purple & black Chucks.

That's it.

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Thursday, March 24, 2011

365 Project - Day 83 - "Keith"

March 24, 2011 - "Keith"

Black lines and bright colors call to me...

... they are saying "Dance! Dance! Dance!"...

like the sound of a ghettoblaster pumping "The Message" on a street corner of my youth.

Rhythms and Movements and Colors...

... they are saying "Dance! Dance! Dance!"...

as I close my eyes and lose myself in the moment.

Dreams and Possibilities...

... they are saying "Dance! Dance! Dance!"...

in a world of ART=LIFE=ART circle of creation.

So I dance.

(i dance)



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Wednesday, March 23, 2011

365 Project - Day 82 - "The Last Guinness"

March 23, 2011 - "The Last Guinness"

I got a call from my doctor today.

Blood test results.

Big changes needed.

No more alcohol... at least for now.

So tonight I'm at Molly Darcy's enjoying one last Guinness.

(While quietly crying inside)

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Tuesday, March 22, 2011

365 Project - Day 81 - "Taxi Driver"

March 22, 2011 - "Taxi Driver"

March 22nd. 6:30PM. Lenny and I went to the Windmill Diner on Route 7. I had coffee and a cheeseburger with melted yellow cheese. I think that was a good selection. Lenny had black coffee and a turkey burger dish. He could have had anything he wanted.

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Oh... and then we went to AMC Theater to see "Taxi Driver" - in celebration of it's 35th Anniversary. I abso-freakin'-lutely LOVE that movie. I've seen it at least a couple-dozen times... in fact, I just watched it on TV a couple of weeks ago - but this was my first time seeing it on the big screen.

And I just couldn't resist pulling out my Canon G12 and snapping a few shots from the hip while the film was playing. Sorry Mr. Scorsese! I mean no disrespect... and I'm not making a dime off of this - I just couldn't resist! Your film is just too damn awesome!

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Monday, March 21, 2011

365 Project - Day 80 - "Spring"

March 21, 2011 - "Spring"

Today is the first full day of Spring.

Yesterday it was sunny, warm and beautiful outside.

Today... it is snowing.

Tomorrow? I guess we'll have to wait and see!

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Sunday, March 20, 2011

365 Project - Day 79 - "Skylar"

March 20, 2011 - "Skylar"

My beautiful niece Skylar on the day of her Christening/Baptism. I think she was wondering what all of the hub-bub was about!

(Life is good!)

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Saturday, March 19, 2011

365 Project - Day 78 - "In Our Shoes (Alexa's Shoes)"

March 19, 2011 - "In Our Shoes (Alexa's Shoes)"

In Our Shoes is a project to raise awareness of the problem of bullying in our schools, communities, and online. All middle school and high school students who feel they have been bullied are invited to submit a pair of shoes to the project. These shoes may be decorated or written on in whatever manner you wish, and you may submit them along with a 4X6 card telling your story. No names are required, and information is kept anonymous. Your shoes will become part of a display that travels to area schools, churches, or other organizations to help people visualize the experiences of children and teens affected by bullying.

For more information please visit the In Our Shoes web site at

In Our Shoes is an initiative of the youth of King Street United Church of Christ, Danbury CT and is a Signature Partner of the Connecticut Conference's Youth & Young Adult Ministries.


The shoes in this photograph were part of a display at the Brookfield Theater for the Arts during the run of their production of "Dog Sees God: Confessions of a Teenage Blockhead", which deals with the subject of bullying.

While there were approximately two dozen pairs of shoes in the display... this pair stood out as unique. Why? Because unlike the other pairs of shoes on display, which were each created by students who had themselves experienced bullying and chose to share their story - the person behind the story of THIS pair of shoes was not able to tell it herself. As a result of being bullied, Alexa chose to end her own life... just three days before she would have started high school. Her family chose to share her story by decorating these shoes in her honor.

Seeing them brought tears to my eyes. I was bullied throughout all of middle-school, and most of high school. At first it was because I was overweight... so I starved myself until I was under 140lbs. Then it was because I was "too skinny"... "too effeminate"... "too faggy"... "too gay"... or because of the way I dressed... or the way my hair was... or because my voice is higher than most males... or because of who I was attracted to... or what girl or boy I was seen kissing or holding hands with... or what sort of things I liked/collected/drew/painted/listened to/read/looked at... or whatever.

Basic verbal "teasing" became having books knocked out of my hands... garbage put into my bag when I wasn't looking... hate-words being written on my belongings... phone call threats... confrontations in school stairways and corners... smacks... hits... punches... threats of serious injury and even death.

It got so bad... and so "dangerous"... that the crisis counselor at my high school suggested that I leave the school and enroll in the adult program, for my own safety... which (for that and a combination of other reasons as well) I eventually did, just to get away.

There wasn't a day I didn't think about suicide... or trying to at least self-destruct! Then I met two people who completely changed my life... my (then) girlfriend Janice - and my wife Holly. Two people I loved dearly... who showed me that life was worth living.

Everything changed. Now I'm almost 20 years out of high school and have two children of my own, one of whom is currently in junior high. I will do ANYTHING to ensure that my own kids do not have to go through the same hell I had to go through!

But in many ways I had it so much easier than kids like Alexa. I had the blessing of having certain people in my life who helped me to see that it truly does get better. Alexa... and too many others just like her... didn't have such blessings. While I know that there were people in Alexa's life who truly loved her... for some reason it wasn't enough to help her feel as if she wasn't alone... it wasn't enough to convince her that it would get better.

And it DOES get better!

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Friday, March 18, 2011

365 Project - Day 77 - "Passed Out"

March 18, 2011 - "Passed Out"

Sitting in Molten Java coffeehouse... sipping a Mocha... listening to a band play... working on my laptop...

... apparently the "excitement" is too much for my son though!

Life is Good!

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Thursday, March 17, 2011

365 Project - Day 76 - "Soul"

March 17, 2011 - "Soul"

Looking at myself...


... at my Self.

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Wednesday, March 16, 2011

365 Project - Day 75 - "Moon Glow"

March 16, 2011 - "Moon Glow"

The Moon glow expands to fill the night...

And I stand beneath her...

... wondering where to go from here.

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Tuesday, March 15, 2011

365 Project - Day 74 - "Bracelet"

March 15, 2011 - "Bracelet"

Not really feeling it today.

Not "creatively inspired".

So... just a quick shot of my bracelet sitting next to my computer... caught between the shadows and the glow of my laptop's display.

That's it.

(Life is good!)

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Monday, March 14, 2011

365 Project - Day 73 - "Self Portrait - Caged"

March 14, 2011 - "Self Portrait - Caged"

Held back...

... by my own accord.

(I think I need to change that!)

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Sunday, March 13, 2011

365 Project - Day 72 - "Cookies and Video Games"

March 13, 2011 - "Cookies and Video Games"

My son... sitting on the floor at Molten Java coffeehouse... playing his Nintendo DS and munching on a cookie...

... until I come along and stand behind him and call his name, to get him to break away from the game and look up at me so I could snap a photo.

And there it is!

(Life is good!)

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Saturday, March 12, 2011

365 Project - Day 71 - "Electric Boobs"

March 12, 2011 - "Electric Boobs"

She has electric boobs...

I like-a-you...



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Friday, March 11, 2011

365 Project - Day 70 - "Nature Cannot Be Caged"

March 11, 2011 - "Nature Cannot Be Caged"

Nature cannot be caged.

Oh, you can try!

But eventually Nature will knock you on your ass and show you who's boss!

Nature cannot be caged!

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Thursday, March 10, 2011

365 Project - Day 69 - "Antlers"

March 10, 2011 - "Antlers"

Another one of my "strange" collections... Antlers.

I don't know how many I have now.

Some are loose...

Some are still attached to part of the skull...

Just about all of them are antiques... 40, 50, 60 years old or more.

These are just a few of them... in a pile on my dining room table tonight.

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Wednesday, March 9, 2011

365 Project - Day 68 - "The Cube"

March 09, 2011 - "The Cube"

I've been looking for a photo all day... but nothing seems to catch my eye.

So I ask my daughter to find me something to photograph.

She disappears to her room...

... and a moment later returns with her Rubik's Cube.

Hmmm... This might work!

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Tuesday, March 8, 2011

365 Project - Day 67 - "Human Rights"

March 08, 2011 - "Human Rights"

Human Rights...

... an abstract thought?

I think not!

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Monday, March 7, 2011

365 Project - Day 66 - "She Is Dancing"

March 07, 2011 - "She Is Dancing"

"She Is Dancing" by Brian Kelly
(from the soundtrack to "Basquiat")

She is dancing,
He is dreaming.

She is dancing,
He is dreaming.

She is dancing,
I'm dreaming again.

And I'll love you, forever.
I'll love you, 'til the end.
Your beauty lights a candle,
I hold in my hand.
You can see this candle burning,
It only burns for you.
And in my eyes it's light becomes,
The meaning for me of you.

She is dancing,
He is dreaming.

She is dancing,
I'm Dreaming.

I'm Dreaming.

I'm Dreaming.

She is dancing,
I'm dreaming again.

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To listen to the song on YouTube, CLICK HERE

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Sunday, March 6, 2011

365 Project - Day 65 - "Rainy Day"

March 06, 2011 - "Rainy Day"

It's a quiet... calm... gray... rainy day.

The pitter-patter of raindrops on the roof...




Life is good!

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Saturday, March 5, 2011

365 Project - Day 64 - "My Dad's Truck"

March 05, 2011 - "My Dad's Truck"

Went to Molten Java tonight to relax... unwind... and listen to the wonderful music of My Dad's Truck.

I remember going to some of their first shows... back at Seattle Espresso... something like 14 or 15 years ago. I love the energy of their shows. It's obvious that they love making music together... they truly enjoy doing what they do - and it comes through in their performance.

Tonight was no exception. A wonderful set played to a packed coffee house.

A wonderful evening.

Life is good!

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"What happened to your arm?"

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People see the brace I've been having to wear on my right hand/arm and feel inclined to ask "What happened?". I can't even begin to count the number of times it has happened to me over the past few days. It gets exhausting trying to explain it over-and-over again... so I've taken to making stuff up, just to have some fun with it.

"A Teabagger found out I'm pro-choice, and tried to kill me!"

"My friend tricked me into going to a Neil Young concert... and it was so bad I tried to kill myself."

"I was attacked by a marmot."

"Chess injury"

"Repetitive Strain Injury from too much Facebooking"

"I botched the landing on my Uneven Bars Routine"

"I put my hand in the air... and waved it like I just didn't care."

"I tried to high-five the Queen. Apparently you're not supposed to do that!"


"I went to the audience-participation screening of '127 Hours'"

"This is what happens when a Wiccan tries to receive Holy Communion!"

And my personal favorite...

"I entered an arm wrestling contest in an Okie bar in San Francisco. I got to the semi finals celebrating my third wife’s demise and a big Chinese fella pulled me right over."

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Friday, March 4, 2011

365 Project - Day 63 - "Amaryllis"

March 04, 2011 - "Amaryllis"

One of our suppliers (at work) gave us a potted Amaryllis bulb as a gift at Christmas. We put it in the front window... and have been watching it sprout and grow ever since.

Today I walked by it and for the first time noticed that it had bloomed. So, on my way out for the day I just had to snap some photos of this bit of nature's beauty, before it is gone.

Life is good!

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Thursday, March 3, 2011

365 Project - Day 62 - "Self Portrait... Wrapped"

March 03, 2011 - "Self Portrait... Wrapped"

I've decided that the safest thing for me to do is to completely wrap myself in bubble-wrap.

Then nothing can hurt me.


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Wednesday, March 2, 2011

365 Project - Day 61 - "Diana"

March 02, 2011 - "Diana"

I have a new toy to play with...

This is an original 1960s Diana camera manufactured by the Great Wall Plastic Factory in Hong Kong. It's in near-mint condition... apparently only ever used once or twice... and still in it's original box, with instruction booklet and unopened plastic strap.

The Diana is a plastic fixed-lens medium-format camera, which shoots 120 film, giving you a mere 16 images. Originally it was meant as a novelty item... and was shipped out in cases of 144 cameras, which retailed for around 50¢ each. Professional photographers quickly took a liking to Diana, however - drawn to the blurry "dreamlike" quality it's cheap plastic lens provided to the images.

Diana cameras were only made for about a dozen years. Later versions included a separate flash-unit... as well as the ability to choose between shooting 16 pictures (each with a 4.2cm square negative) or 12 larger 6X6 cm images.

A few years ago, as the Lomogrophy movement began to spread (based around the Russian Lomo LC-A 35mm camera) - photographers started seeking out other plastic cameras (such as the Holga 120) for the effects their plastic lenses and light-leaking bodies offered. These cameras - known as "toy cameras" - became more and more popular... and thus, harder to find. Originals in working condition usually sell for between $75 and $100... sometimes more. That is, if you can find them!

As a result, the official Lomographic Society decided to create the "Diana F+" - a perfect replica of the original Diana camera with optional flash. The cameras were an instant hit... and today you can buy the Diana F+ in a variety of colors and with a large assortment of accessories. There's even a "Diana Mini" which uses 35mm film and takes smaller-framed shots (I purchased one of those last year). Unfortunately they no longer sell for a mere 50¢. A new Diana F+ is $50... $95 if you want it with the flash... and $240 if you want it bundled with all of the accessories.

But THIS Diana isn't a replica or clone... it's an original... and I can't wait to load it with some Kodak 120 VC film and see what dreams she can capture!

(Life is good!)

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Tuesday, March 1, 2011

365 Project - Day 60 - "Over-Ripened"

March 01, 2011 - "Over-Ripened"





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